Do you feel like going to the vision doctor is like taking the biggest test of your life. Trying to read the smallest line of blurry letters...like you are 6 years old given a reading test! Or, given a multiple choice question of, which one looks clearer, one or two...and you can't even answer that. Why is going to the eye doctor so stressful?
It turns out that my vision has gotten a "bit" worse since last check a year ago. Instead of a contact prescription of -2.75 in both eyes...it has gotten bumped to -3.00 in the left and -3.25 in the right. To me, and to Louie, that seemed like a huge jump...but the eye doctor consoled me into thinking it isn't that bad.
I still have this Pinnecula (spelling is way off) on my left eye...but now my right eye has some sort of Adenovirus. There are multiple different strains of this virus. He had asked me if I had been sick recently, with a cold or sore throat..but I haven't. I guess swollen limp nodes is a sign of this virus in my eye...idk. I don't fully understand...but I guess there are a whole bunch of small opaque dots on the inner layers of my right eye, which takes a lot longer to heal than the outer layer. The eye doctor didn't seem to concerned and hasn't even scheduled me to do a check up exam (although my mother has guilted me into it). But this "virus" in my right eye is causing this blurriness (which, I think, is why my right eye prescription is worse, idk).
I am thinking that my white blood cell count being low is in correlation with this eye virus...
What a bad week. I ended up leaving for lunch today in tears. It's a long long story. But the short of it is...since I started here...at Amulet, the company has not made any money, and I found out that it has lost over $100,000 this year so far. I've made $13,000 of engineering mistakes this year...and this last one that has arose this past week is a big one. Joel (the owner of the company) and Mark (the General Manager) sat me down today and explained that no more mistakes can be made in engineering...and that I am now on a strict procedure/process that I have to follow. I am not debating any of this...I admit that I have made mistakes. I do have to do a little bit of pleeing in the fact that I didn't have any training and just got thrown into my job. I am still learning. Some of it has to do with lack of experience, and some of it has to do with plain carelessness and lack of people checking my work. Lets just say I have no confidence, everyone is now double or triple checking my work (making me feel even more worthless), and I feel very left out and horrible.
Joel is going to be coming in two days a week now to sit with me through projects and help me along to make decisions. (Something that should've been done a year ago). I am afraid for the company...but not my job. They need me here and there isn't any threat of them firing me. It is more of a threat of the whole company going under.
It can only get better though right?
Kristen
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2 comments:
Yes it can only get better...and you are EXACTLY right where was Joel when you started? Why werent you trained on how to do your job? You cant be expected to know everything about heavy equipment right away let alone a product INVENTED by Joel!!! huh weird you think he would have been there from the get go...
That is funny your mother guilted you into an appointment. (Probably a good thing) but since she guilted you does that mean she is paying...I would think it would :)
ooooo(sad)...girl cheer up it's the weekend and don't even think about work because the next thing you know you will be sitting in that chair of yours. In a way i feel horrible about the whole job thing because i mean yeah i take up too much of your time...im sorry! :( but like i said cheer up and just relax. You will make it through this and just think about it as another step in life because really from what i read u never were taught from the get go and so i mean that is partially there bad but i don't want to get into the whole blame game thing. Girl i have faith in you that u will overcome this mess! Just try hard and do ur best and be u cause i mean that is the only thing you can do! I also hope your eye gets better cause from what u say about ur health it could be a factor to ur eye but i just hope you help yourself...take time for yourself because it has been a stressful week and you definitely don't need a stressful weekend that would be extremely stupid!! You can do it! I know u can! Just keep chugging along and you will get to where u wanna be! like the little train that couldn't make it to the top of the hill you are the train and you will make it to the top of your hill as long as you keep chugging along and learning cause that is all you can do girl!
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